Chrissie

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"begin"

where to begin?
perhaps the beginning
rain pouring
driving fast
darkness around
looking at you
and just suddenly knowing
like a bolt of lightning
through me,
entirely changing me
forever
and of
us laughing
us
flash foward
like a flood
to us
no longer us
but were we ever "us"?
we could've been
if you could
only let yourself
feel
what i
feel
i know it's true
because i'm never sure
but this time
i am
so how then
can something i'm so decisive about
be
completely and utterly
wrong?
it's not wrong
in any sense
you try tell me that it all
meant nothing to you
like i'm nothing but
another conquest
to make me feel
ashamed
but you know what?
i'm not
if i could it all over again
i would still
love you
madly, deeply, completely,
head over heels
i've already admitted
that i won't find anything
like what could've been
i am confident
but
you are not
and actions
speak louder
than words
than the lies you tell me,
try to make me believe
because you're
running,
running from me
into men,
poor substitutions
of me,
trying to prove that you're
not who i know you are
and who i am, too
searching, hiding
denying,
what's real
what's true
you may come close,
but nothing will ever
compare,
nothing will be the
same
to what could've been
so you and i should
just
go back and
begin
but this time
together.

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The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.

In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.

If I were God over LiveJournal... by shinikami
Username
Jesus would be	mandiloulou
The four archangels would be	snazwriter
and	gaincolor
and	peanutj
and	just_a_rocker
The Blessed Virgin would be	pacbox
Satan would be	lacyjanec
The antichrist would be	mac05
And YOU would be	In Heaven
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Your Birthdate: September 23

With a birthday on the 23rd of the month (5 energy) you are inclined to work well with people and enjoy them. You are talented and versatile, very good at presenting ideas. You may have a tendency to get itchy feet at times and need change and travel. You tend to be very progressive, imaginative and adaptable. Your mind is quick, clever and analytical. A restlessness in your nature may make you a bit impatient and easily bored with routine. You may have a tendency to shirk responsibility. Very sociable, you make friends easily and you are an excellent traveling companion.

You are

You Are 40% Normal (Somewhat Normal)

While some of your behavior is quite normal... Other things you do are downright strange You've got a little of your freak going on But you mostly keep your weirdness to yourself

This is so weird. It sounds a lot like me. Crazy!

Your Life Path Number Is 9

9 The keys your Life Path are compassion, generosity, and a very humanitarian attitude. You are very trustworthy, honorable, and unlikely to harbor any sort of prejudice. Obviously, this is a rather tall order, but you are, in fact, a person that feels very deeply for individuals less fortunate than yourself. If you are in a position to help, you certainly will. You tend to be quite sensitive, as you see the world with much feeling and compassion. The 9, being the highest of the single digit numbers, holds an elevated position and poses certain responsibilities. Your purpose of life is of a philosophical nature. Judges, spiritual leaders, healers and educators frequently have much 9 energy. Material gains are not overly important to you. You have a very selfless attitude and will give up of material possessions for the common good. he desire to help others, especially the troubled or underprivileged, is strong. You are apt to frequently find yourself being used and let down by others, as your generosity is misused and abused. Your very deep understanding of life is sometimes manifested in the artistic and literary fields. Here you may be able to express your deep emotional feelings through painting, writing, music, or other art forms. Often, however, there if a great deal of difficulty finding a suitable outlet for the your Life Path. You are usually well suited to the helping and healing professions... but less inclined to the competitive business environment. You have the ability to make friends very easily, as people are attracted to your magnetic, open personality. You have a special gift of understanding people, which if used correctly can be of great benefit to others. Your interest in people tends to make you quite social. People just naturally like you because you are so sympathetic, tolerant and broad-minded. In many ways, you are a romantic that can get lost in your loves and passions. Relationships can be difficult for you, however, because it is hard to strike a balance that will work effectively. If your partner is one sharing your giving attitudes, the relationship will be happy and lasting. On the other hand, if you choose a partner whose focus is on material issues, problems will arise quickly. As do all the life path numbers, the 9 has its negative side, and because of the demanding nature of the truly positive 9, many tend to fail in this category. It is not uncommon for persons with the 9 life path to fight the realities and challenges of purpose imposed... because selflessness is not an easy trait. You may have difficulty believing that giving and a lack of personal ambition can be satisfying. You must accept that little long-term satisfaction and happiness is to be gained by rejecting the natural humanitarian inclinations of your path.

The Hippie Commune by freckles42
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zodiac sign	AriesTaurusGeminiCancerLeoVirgoLibraScorpioSaggitariusCapricornAquariusPisces
reason for joining the commune	couldn't afford to leave the countrycouldn't find a cult to joinwanted free lovethought it was a nudist colonydidn't want to take final examsthought they were going to a wymyn's festival and never leftwas sent to live with the Amish and took a wrong turnbored with drugs
creepy but harmless leader	gaincolor
insists on running around naked	mandiloulou
conceptual artist	peanutj
refuses to work in the garden, walks round barefoo	lacyjanec
tries to start a tantric sex group	pacbox
hugs trees and gets poison oak	just_a_rocker
holds a grudge against the government	mac05
tries to convert everyone from the inside	snazwriter
sells LSD to babies	mac05
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How ya doin'? *Joey nod*

Your Seduction Style: The Charmer

You're a master at intimate conversation and verbal enticement. You seduce with words, by getting people to open up to you. By establishing this deep connection quickly, people feel under your power. And then you've got them exactly where you want them!

Ok here are the rules: If you are a girl put X's in the [] that are things you like guys to do if you are a guy then put X's on the guy part... simple. Ok Now once you are done pass this on, post, email, IM whatever, but if you break the chain forget about EVER experiencing love.. EVER! (yea whatever, who believes that anyways...)

Girls::
Do you like it when guys...

[X] Hold your hand?
[X] Sneak up behind you and just hold you?
[ ] Tell their friends all about you?
[X] Take you to the movies?
[X] To the park?
[X] Out to eat?
[x] Open doors for you?
[x] Buy you flowers?
[x] Give you gifts?
[x] Make the first move?
[X] Give you a hug?
[x] Kiss you?
[x] Dance with you? Even with no music on?
[x] Give you compliments?
[ ]Get jealous?
[X] Do random corny romantic things?
[x] Call you?
[x] Make you laugh?
[ ] Act "emo"
[x] write you a poem?
[x] Write you a song?
[x] Say they love you? (only if they mean it)


Guys::
Do you like it when girls...
[ ] Hold your hand?
[ ] Hit you playfully?
[ ] Jump on your back?
[ ] Kiss you?
[ ] Give you gifts?
[ ] Make you gifts?
[ ] Do something romantic?
[ ] Write you a poem?
[ ] Call you?
[ ] Get jealous?
[ ] Say they love you?
[ ] Make the first move?
[ ] Tell all their friends about you?
[ ] Flirt with you?
[ ] Play with your hair?

DON'T FORGET TO UNMARK WHAT ISN'T YOURS!!

I make her look at herself....death by ugliness

What stupid celebrity are you destined to kill? by daydreamer8852
Name
Birthdate
You killed
With a
On	December 13, 2009
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I think I have been hanging out too much with Janelle and Michel...

Which internet subculture do I belong to? [CLICK] You are a Trekkie! It's a geek, Jim! You probably have a starfleet uniform and a tricorder. Bonus points if you speak klingon. One day you will walk down the aisle with your buttertroll trekkie partner, humming to the Yoyager theme. More Quizzes at Go-Quiz.com

How to make a Chrissie

Ingredients: 1 part friendliness 1 part humour 1 part energy

Method: Stir together in a glass tumbler with a salted rim. Add wisdom to taste! Do not overindulge!

YoUr LifE___
[x] they call me: Chrissie, Dolly, Christina, Tissy
[x] sex: Girl
[x] my first breath of air: September 23rd, 1984
[x] status: Single and looking ;)
[x] occupation: College Student
[x] nationality: French, Irish, Scottish, Native American, Canadian (all of 'em = American Mutt)
[x] best friend: Ashley, Katie, Michel, Janelle, Alyssa, Denise, Lacy, Katelynn, Mandi, Trista (not in any particular order)

_______fAst fOrward_______
[x] future resident of: Oregon
[x] wedding: in the Catholic Church with prettyness
[x] children: Someday ...3-5
[x] looking forward to: finishing college, getting married, having a family
[x] NOT looking forward to: family/friends dying, paying bills

_______pLAy_______
[x] feeling: Full and happy :D
[x] Listening: radio
[x] Talking to: Janelleo on IM
[x] doing: nothing
[x] craving: hugs
[x] thinking of: a cute guy and friends
[x] hating: drama and my expos. class

_______LOve?_______
[x] love is: something i have yet to experience
[x] first love: not yet
[x] current love: my friends and family
[x] love or lust?: Love. Lust is just temporary.
[x] best love song: "Cry" by Mandy Moore
[x] is it possible to be in love w/ more than one person at the same time?: It is possible to love more than one person. But there will always be the one.
[x] when love hurts, you: cry , talk to friends, write poetry
[x] true or false: TRUE
[x] is there such thing as love @ first sight?: Lust at first sight. But never love. Love comes when you actually know the person.

_______MaLE/FeMaLe SpeCieS_______
[x] turn ons: Eyes, Smile, facial hair (scruffy). kindness
[x] turn offs: Long Hair, Cockiness, Sloppiness. Rudeness.
[x] what kinda hair style?: Short
[x] where do you go to meet new people?: through friends, stores, out and about
[x] are you the type of person to holler and ask for numbers?: Not usually

_______pIcky pIcky_______
[x] dog or cat: Dog
[x] short or long hair: Short
[x] innie or outtie: Innie
[x] sunshine or rain: Both
[x] moon or sun: Moon
[x] basketball or football: Basketball
[x] righty or lefty: Righty
[x] hugs or kisses: Hugs (until I know what a kiss is like)
[x] 1 best friend or 10 acquaintances: 10 best friends :)
[x] bf/gf or best friend: a bf should be your very best friend
[x] tv or radio: Radio
[x] starbucks or jamba juice: neither
[x] mcdonalds or burger king: Burger King
[x] summer or winter: Winter
[x] written letters or e-mails: depends on the occassion
[x] playstation or nintendo: both
[x] disney or nickelodeon: Disney
[x] car or motorcycle: Car
[x] house party or club: House...too many freaky people at clubs
[x] sing or dance: Both....but i am not good at either
[x] freak or slow dance: Slow dance
[x] yahoo messenger or ..aim? Neither...Trillian
[x] google or ask jeeves?: Google

_______MiSceLLaneOus_______
[x] can you swim?: No
[x] whats your most embarrassing moment?: I don't know
[x] whats under your bed?: Boxes of stuff that didn't fit anywhere else in my room...dirty clothes...a monster
[x] what are you scared of?: death...being alone....not going to Heaven
[x] what is your greatest accomplishment?: College
[x] do you like tomatoes?: yes
[x] what kinda roof is over your head?: A nice dorm one
[x] how many TVs in the house?: 1
[x] how many phones?: 2- 1 room , 1 cell
[x] how many DVDs do you have?: 4
[x] last dentist visit: long time ago
[x] last doctor visit: Not for awhile.
[x] last phone call: today

*********YOUR LOOKS*********
11. Hair color: Brownish red
12. Eye color? Brown like a puppy dog
14. Do u wear contacts or glasses? nope
15. Do you have any piercing? Ears ...but i think they closed up
16. Do you wear any rings/jewelry? sometimes
17. Do you have a certain fashion you follow: comfortable

**********JUST LATELY***************
18. How are you today?: tired, lazy, happy
19. What pants are you wearing right now? tan slacks
20. What shirt are you wearing right now? tanish shirt
21. What does your hair look like at the moment? messy
22. What song are u listening to right now? "I wanna be with you" by Mandy Moore
23. How is the weather right now? Rainy
24. Last person you talked to on the phone? Mom
26. Who are you talking to right now? Didn't we go over this.
27. What time is it?: 10:09 pm

UNIQUE --

1. Nervous Habits? bite my lip and nails
2. Are you double jointed? i don't know
3. Can you roll your tongue? no
4. Can you raise one eyebrow at a time? yes
5. Can you blow spit bubbles? Yes
6. Can you cross your eyes? Yeppers
7. Tattoos? only temporary once in awhile
8. Piercings and where? We did this already
9. Do you make your bed daily? only when my mom visits

-- CLOTHES --

10. Which shoe goes on first? either
11. what kind of shoes are you wearing? tennis
13. What jewelry do you wear? necklace, i have ear rings, bracelets
14. Favorite piece of clothing? Delta sweatshirt, Sweatpants

-- FOOD --

15. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? twirl
16. Have you ever eaten SPAM? Unfortunately yes
17. Favorite ice cream flavor? mint, cookie dough
18. How many cereals in your cabinet? 0
19. What's your favorite beverage? Pepsi
20. What's your favorite restaurant? Red Robin's....
21. Do you cook? When I have the $ for food

-- GROOMING --

22. How often do you brush your teeth? 2x a day
23. Hair drying method? air
24. Have you ever colored/highlighted your hair? nope...au natural

-- MANNERS -

25. Do you swear? yes
26. Do you ever spit? Yes

-- WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE --

27. Animal? Dog
28. Food? Italian, Chinese, Mexican
29. Month? September
30. Day? Saturday
31. Cartoon? Simpsons
32. Shoe Brand? whatever fits
33. Subject in school? Art :)
34. Color? Red
35. Sport? Basketball
36. TV Show? American Dreams, Frasier, FRIENDS
37. Thing to do in the spring? Sleep, walk in the rain, read
38. Thing to do in the summer? beach, hang out with friends, paint, bbq/picnic, camp
39. Thing to do in the autumn? Work out, go walking under the leaves, fish, hike
40. Thing to do in the winter? cuddle by a fireplace, read


-- IN AND AROUND --

41. The CD player? Now 17
42. Person you talk most on the phone with? Mom
43. Ever taken a cab? No
44. Do you regularly check yourself out in store windows and mirrors? Occasionally.
45. What color is your bedroom? White walls, red/green bed
46. Do you use an alarm clock? Yes
47. Window seat or aisle? never been on a plane

-- LA LA LAND --
48. What's your sleeping position? towards wall on tummy
49. Even in hot weather do you use a blanket? No
50. Do you snore? yes
51. Do you sleepwalk? I have before
52. Do you talk in your sleep? Yes
53. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? sometimes
54. How about with the light on? Can't sleep w/ the light
55. Do you fall asleep with the TV or radio on? radio or my fan (yes, even in the middle of winter)

***EDIT***
Just to clarify, since I've had multiple questions about this, you star the ones you've done and leave the others blank.
***

******I miss someone right now.
*****I watch more TV this year than last year.
******I love olives.
*I love sleeping.
I own a home.
******I love to play video games.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
******I have done something illegal.
*****I have watched porn movies. (ewww...no)
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the "psycho ex" in a past relationship.
I like my handwriting.
I have acne-free skin.
I curse frequently.
******I have a hobby.
*****I have been to another country.
******I have been told that I am very smart.
******I can be paranoid at times.
******I have changed a lot over the past year.
I carry a weapon with me everywhere I go.
I have broken a bone.
******I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
*I love rain.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I have tried sushi.
I have been to Las Vegas.
******i have at least one brother/sister
*****I am usually pessimistic.
******I have mood swings.
*****I think prostitution should be legalized.
*****I think Britney Spears is pretty.
I have kissed someone of the same sex.
I have been in a real relationship.
******I have rejected someone before.
I was born in a country other than the USA.
******I shave my legs.
I have a twin.
*****I have Caller I.D. on my phone.
I am good at styling other people's hair.
I have cheated on a significant other.
I have a hidden talent.
******I am currently single.
*I enjoy talking on the phone.
*I love to shop.
I would classify myself as "ghetto".
I am obsessed with my LJ.
******I don't hate anyone.
I am a good dancer.
I am embarrassed to be seen with my mother or father.
******I have a cell phone.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
******I currently have a crush on someone
*I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
*I have changed a diaper. (of course I have; I am the oldest of 7 kids)
*****I am allergic to something deadly. (Does homework count? ;) )
******I have a lot to learn.
I've dated someone 10 years(or more) older/younger than me.
*I am very shy around the opposite sex.
*I have been rejected by someone
*I have made a move on a friend's significant other in the past.
******I have avoided work to play with my blog.
I have had the cops called on me.
******I bite my nails.
*****I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
I, as a child, learned "the difference between boys and girls" with a neighbor or friend.
*I enjoy country music.
*****I think that Pizza Hut makes the best pizza.
I watch soap operas on a regular basis.
******I love my friends.
I am perfectionist.
*I have had a crush on somebody I have never met.
I have kissed someone I knew I shouldn't.
*****I have been to Europe.
I have had sex with someone I was not in a relationship with.
******I enjoy smoothies.
I love Michael Jackson
I have watched the television show "Spongebob Squarepants".
I have dated a close friend's ex.
******I am content as of this moment.
I have gone scuba diving.
*****I play a musical instrument.
******I Strongly dislike math.
*I am procrastinating by filling out this list. (Gosh, this survey knows me so well :) )
******I own and use a library card.
******I have seen "The Lord of the Rings" trilogy.
*I have seen the television show "The O.C."
I am resentful that I have to grow up.
*I like eating Ramen noodles.
I am Currently nursing a broken heart.
******I consider myself to be a "nerd."
I am left handed.
*I have had major surgery.
I have a pet.
*****I own 100 CDs or more. [lots of ‘em are non-music, though]
******I think the world would be a better place if people just smiled more often.
******I have been told that I have an unusual sense of humor.
I am currently in my pajamas.
I have tried a drug that is illegal.
******I am a cuddler.
******I have a tendency to fall for the "wrong" girl/guy. (always :( )
I will try anything once.
*****I am a Republican.
******I am Catholic.
******I am a college student.
*I like to cook.
I like to vacuum.
I collect picture frames.
*I like Shakespeare.
*I like to sing. (but, can I sing well? No. )
I practice a religion that is not considered "mainstream."
*I have counted down the days until the summer.
******I have fulfilled someone's dare at a party or gathering.
I am, or was, pigeon-toed.
I have been to an anime convention.
******I have a hard time paying attention at school.
I have a car.
I am an only child.
******I work at a job that I enjoy.
I sleep a lot during the day.
I like the taste of blood.
******I have swum in the ocean.
I like being the center of attention.
*****I know how to shoot a gun.
I am currently pregnant.
I have all my grandparents, none of them have died.
*I have had my hair cut within the last week.
******I enjoy jazz music.
I am a morning person.
*****I have watched "Sex and the City.”
I am married.
******I want to get (re-)married.
******I am a huge fan of lists
******I currently regret something that I have done.
******I read books for pleasure.
******I'm a virgin.
I think long strings of html code look cool.
I do not believe people are inherently good or evil, rather they are inherently lazy.
I love learning foreign languages.
I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.

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