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Tue, Jun. 24th, 2008, 10:04 pm
love lost that never began...

"begin"

where to begin?
perhaps the beginning
rain pouring
driving fast
darkness around
looking at you
and just suddenly knowing
like a bolt of lightning
through me,
entirely changing me
forever
and of
us laughing
us
flash foward
like a flood
to us
no longer us
but were we ever "us"?
we could've been
if you could
only let yourself
feel
what i
feel
i know it's true
because i'm never sure
but this time
i am
so how then
can something i'm so decisive about
be
completely and utterly
wrong?
it's not wrong
in any sense
you try tell me that it all
meant nothing to you
like i'm nothing but
another conquest
to make me feel
ashamed
but you know what?
i'm not
if i could it all over again
i would still
love you
madly, deeply, completely,
head over heels
i've already admitted
that i won't find anything
like what could've been
i am confident
but
you are not
and actions
speak louder
than words
than the lies you tell me,
try to make me believe
because you're
running,
running from me
into men,
poor substitutions
of me,
trying to prove that you're
not who i know you are
and who i am, too
searching, hiding
denying,
what's real
what's true
you may come close,
but nothing will ever
compare,
nothing will be the
same
to what could've been
so you and i should
just
go back and
begin
but this time
together.